Monday, September 20, 2010

I miss you.




Bismillah

When I met my husband many years ago, this song was sort of popular.




It really resonated with me then, and even though, as a Muslim, I don't listen to music any more, the lyrics still forcibly remind me of how I felt about my husband then and how I feel about him now.

Sometimes life scares me- the way that Allah shows me things. I'm so humbled by everything - the precision, the amazing sweep of how Allah has organized my life.


I swear, Allah told me though this song, to marry him.

And I did.

And I became a Muslim.

I don't much like the reference to Lucifer - but if you want to describe an intense person, well, yeah, there you have it, masha'Allah.

Misguided Angel by the Cowboy Junkies

I said "Mama, he's crazy and he scares me
But I want him by my side
Though he's wild and he's bad
And sometimes just plain mad
I need him to keep me satisfied"

I said "Papa, don't cry cause it's alright
And I see you in some of his ways
Though he might not give me the life that you wanted
I'll love him the rest of my days"

Misguided angel hangin' over me
Heart like a Gabriel, pure and white as ivory
Soul like a Lucifer, black and cold like a piece of lead
Misguided angel, love you 'til I'm dead

I said "Brother, you speak to me of passion
You said never to settle for nothing less
Well, it's in the way he walks,
It's in the way he talks
His smile, his anger and his kisses"

I said "Sister, don't you understand?
He's all I ever wanted in a man
I'm tired of sittin' around the T.V. every night
Hoping I'm finding a Mr. Right"

Misguided angel hangin' over me
Heart like a Gabriel, pure and white as ivory
Soul like a Lucifer
Black and cold like a piece of lead
Misguided angel, love you 'til I'm dead

He says "Baby, don't listen to what they say
There comes a time when you have to break away"
He says "Baby there are things we all cling to all our life
It's time to let them go and become my wife"

Misguided angel hangin' over me
Heart like a Gabriel, pure and white as ivory
Soul like a Lucifer
Black and cold like a piece of lead
Misguided angel, love you 'til I'm dead.